marblandini

sdghdfjehfsd idek what i'm doing right now.

I hate everyone at my school so much. I seriously have no close friends whatsoever and I hate it. All my friends in general have been avoiding me and I'm not even sure why. No one is really relevant to my interests since everyone in my damn town is a carbon copy of each other. It's sad, actually. But whatever, once my friends stop being assholes and actually talk to me I'll probably be in a better mood. But as of now I have a pretty worthless life and I hate being on the computer so much, but what else am I supposed to do? Legit, I only watch TV occasionally, and I can't sit through movies cause I'm so fidgety. (Even though I do.) I just envy all the assholes that I hate in my town with their prefect lives. I wish I had somewhere to go every weekend, too. The only reason they don't talk to me is cause they know I'm different (I don't swoon over the Jonas Brothers, my life is over omg) and it really fucking sucks. I just need someone to talk to I guess.

I'm on a hardcore diet right now, though. I've lost 10 pounds in 4 weeks, which I think is pretty good. I want to look good for my cousins wedding in November, not that I will be noticed at all because my sister always takes everyone's attention somehow. Even now that she's not home, she's all my mom talks about and everything she says about me is bad. Like, goddamn, stop pretending to not favor Andria when clearly you are. I wish I could move in with my dad cause he actually wants to spend time with me and doesn't tell me to run away.

I'm just really sick of being at the bottom of everyone's lists, I'm alive too.
But hey, at least I get good grades.

I had a lj before, but i lost the username sometime last year and haven't used it since. But I've decided to come back, sooo yeah. Welcome back, me?